***
Kaoru
sighed and put the CD case on the low table beside him. The violet head
adjusted the cushion a little before sitting on it. Then he leaned back on the
wall and picked the CD case up with his left hand while his right one had a
remote control.
The guitarist
pouted, looking at the CD case, then smiled as he found the song he wanted to
listen to.
There were few
noises coming from the kitchen and Kaoru smiled, without lifting his head up, knowing
how, why and who made the sounds. Few seconds later Toshiya came running
towards him.
“Hey, this is
your tea…” he stood in front of the older man and handed him a mug, a warm mug
when Kaoru held it.
“Domo
Arigatou…” Kaoru winked and with another hand he placed few cushions beside
him, “Nah, sit here!” he patted the biggest cushion. Toshiya smiled and threw
himself gently on it. Then the bassist placed his right arm across, on Kaoru’s
waist.
“Ne, I haven’t
even take a sip!” the older one exclaimed.
Toshiya
giggled and tightened his hold
“Ma, …” Kaoru
took few sips of his tea then placed the mug on the table. That was when
Toshiya saw the CD case. He leaned over just as Kaoru was trying to wrap his
arms around the pretty one.
“Nani o
suru??? I thought you wanted a hug!” Kaoru pouted.
Toshiya
ignored and picked the CD case up, then clutching on it tightly, he leaned on
Kaoru’s chest. The violet head pouted more but hugged him anyway.
“Camui Gackt?
Is this what you’ve been listening the whole time?” Toshiya asked, eyes fixed
on the back cover, reading the titles. Kaoru chuckled and nodded, “Hm, hm….”
Toshiya
giggled all the sudden, “No more Southern all star?”
Kaoru made no
reply but tightened his hug
Toshiya
cuddled up more in response, “Since when is God of death kaoru leader sama
become sappy?” he asked with a laugh. Hearing that, Kaoru made a sound and took
the CD case from Toshiya, “He is not sappy!” he defended, not really sure if it
was for himself, or Gackt.
“But
he sings about love!”
“What’s wrong
with singing about love?!”
“But it’s
love!”
“SO? Don’t you
feel love?”
Toshiya jerked
his head up, stared at Kaoru, then smiled before touching Kaoru’s lips with
his, “Uh huh …”
Kaoru held his
chin for a while and they just stayed there, for few seconds, eyes closed, lips
touching.
“I think he’s
romantic” Kaoru commented as he pulled away slightly. Toshiya pouted and took
the CD case from him,
“But
still…doesn’t seem like something you will listen to anyway…”
Kaoru laughed,
“Yeah…yeah… I like his voice, very deep…and it suited Malice Mizer” he added
Toshiya
blinked, “You mean…Mana san?”
Kaoru smiled
“But he left!”
Toshiya hissed, pouting still, “He left Mana san!”
“NO he did
not! Only God knows why he left!” Kaoru poked Toshiya’s nose, “Speaking of
Mana…”
“Mana san!”
Kaoru rolled his eyes, “Mana SAN…” He took the CD case from the younger one, “There is something interesting here” he flipped the lyrics page and showed Toshiya a song, “Here, wait. Listen to this…”
Toshiya watched
as Kaoru pressed a button on the remote control then looked at Kaoru.
“There’s a
song-”
Kaoru shut his
eyes as Toshiya kissed him. First it was slow, and nice, and emotional. Then it
started to get passionate that Kaoru cupped Toshiya’s face and pulled away
gently.
Toshiya smiled
Kaoru smiled
back
“Now who’s
getting sappy?” the older man teased. Blush crept on Toshiya’s cheek as he
buried his face on Kaoru’s chest, “Don’t tease me! Tease Shin kun, never me!”
he whispered. The older man laughed and patted his head.
“Kiku…”
The song
played, and Toshiya listened, with Kaoru patting his head gently, and once in a
while kissing it. The bassist shut his eyes, leaned on Kaoru’s chest and slowly
felt himself being drifted …
~~~~Sayonara…aishita
tai setsuna hito
koboreta namitaga yukini…kawaru
sayonara nai
teta kino no made no boku
shizukani me o tojite
Kaoru placed
his cheek on Toshiya’s head, his hand still running through Toshiya’s dark
hair. The younger man opened his eyes and hugged Kaoru closer and closer…
…
~~~~Chiisa
me no tepuru de
futari dake no yume o
mi e nai mi
rai sae mo
kou ku hana
katta
hajimete no arubamu ni
fure shi sou
na kimi o
sotto mite ta
Toshiya shut his eyes, again. The violin sound filled the atmosphere, and it was just so peaceful, so calm…so heartrending and lonely.
Kaoru took a
deep breath and exhaled as the song ended.
Toshiya
straightened his back and looked at Kaoru, “It’s so sad!”
Kaoru nodded,
“Do you know why?”
Toshiya joined
his eyebrows, both missing the bright tempo song filling the background. Kaoru
smiled and looked at the CD case, “I have the feeling he wrote that for-”
“Mana san?!”
Toshiya gasped
Kaoru nodded
Toshiya smiled
and looked away, “Hm…maybe…but why?”
“Well, maybe
because he knew he had to leave, and Mana san probably knows the reason why”
Kaoru shrugged and placed the CD case on the table. Toshiya rested his chin on
Kaoru’s knee, that was bent.
“I thought you
said only God knew why he left!” Toshiya’s eyes shone brightly as he looked at
Kaoru accusingly.
“Yeah, but I’m
allowed to guess ne…”
Toshiya stuck
his tongue out, and all the sudden, he stopped the stereo from playing and
wrapped his slender arms around Kaoru’s neck, and that just made the guitarist
felt a request was coming…a tough question.
“Ne, Kao
Kao…when are you writing a song for me then?!” Toshiya asked, tone whiny and
eyes looked up innocently along with the most adorable pout.
Kaoru’s
eyebrows twitched, “Nani?!”
“Write a
song!” Toshiya insisted
“Totchi!!!
What do you mean by that?!”
“You don’t
write songs for me!”
Kaoru sighed
aloud and rubbed his temple, “Totchi…I wrote Akuro no Oka, when we first
started to go out, dedicated to you. Then I wrote Cage, just for you to play
with your bass! When I wrote Macabre I was thinking about you all the time!!!!
And Zakuro too! And last but not least, how could you forget Tai you no ao?!”
he spoke up desperately.
Toshiya bit
his lip, giggled sheepishly and leaned forward placing a kiss on Kaoru’s cheek,
“But I want more!” he sounded like he was pouting.
Kaoru fumed
“Ne…Kao Kao…”
Toshiya tugged on his sleeve
“Don’t call me
Kao Kao…my name is Kaoru!” he sulked
Toshiya
gasped, “Ma! You call me Totchi! My name is Hara Toshimasa!” he exclaimed.
Kaoru blinked
and smiled, “Totchi…” he whispered and brushed Toshiya’s cheek lightly
Toshiya
blushed and looked away, “Hara Toshimasa feels like home. He belongs to Hara
family” Kaoru held his chin up, “Toshiya belongs to Dir en grey, belongs to the
band, to the fans…to the world…” he whispered
Toshiya looked
up, eyes filled with admiration,
amazement, …and love
“Totchi…”
Kaoru whispered and leaned closer to his face,
“Belongs to
me….”
Kaoru gave him
a soft kiss
“Kaoru…”
Toshiya’s eyes
fluttered close as Kaoru kissed him deeply.
“Ai shiteru “
With both
hands, Kaoru held Toshiya’s face and stared at the pretty one for a long time
“Ai shiteru
yo…”
***
Lady7
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Soooo sappy!!!
Anyway, I saw a drummer of a band looking sooo much like Shinya! >< and I
screamed the loudest! To fUXION, this fic is dedicated to you, so please, feel
free to feel itchy everywhere from the sappiness. The ending is a bit
too…weird. I don’t know how to close this fic. Anyway, I think fUXION is kakkoi
ne…
Gackt, The
song, number 7, sayonara…I really feel he writes that one for Mana, so there
will be a short fic about that. Just wait ne…
This is
dedicated to VM as well, to relief exam stress. My exam starts this week…and
I’m not studying…
To Michan…hope
to see you again…
Minna san…good
luck!